I Love You So Much It Hurts To Lie.
+14I love you so much it hurts me to lie,
I wish so bad I could tell you that I cry.
I need you right now to keep me alive,
to comfort me while I fight to survive.
While the blade runs up and down my arm,
I wish I could feel you and your amazing charm.
Feel the heat of your breath on my neck telling me to stop,
I know my razor would just suddenly feel the need to drop.
Too bad fear hides my eagerness to tell,
even though if you really loved me I could as well.
The fear that tells me you’ll leave me if you know,
all of these feelings that I want to show.
The love we share is means so much more to me than this,
when I’m around you I forget the longing to cut and its bliss.
If I told you, would you run away and hate me too?
Would there no longer be a hope to this amazing me and you?
In result I spend more sleepless nights,
cutting and causing mental fights.
I can’t take this anymore since I can’t cry,
I think I need to end these nights I spend with you and lies.
You don’t know me and I guess you never will,
as I bring the gun to my head I feel a satisfying chill.
This note to you I had to really write,
on that last amazing night.
As you slept in my half empty bed,
I wonder how you will look when this is read.
I know you won’t miss me so I’ll leave right now,
remembering the last words my memories allow.
Those last words you said to me before you slept,
never once knowing I had ever wept.
Bang…do you miss me?
This poem was written/submitted by lisha len.
